New year......

Happy new year
I don't wanna talk about the new one
but the finishing year
on these very last hours of the dying day I can't
help reviewing the whole year over and over
all the rises and falls all the laughters and tears
what a year......
I honestly have a hard time even thinking about
some parts, some..........
but the year is over and so is every thing associated
may God bless us all!!!!!!!!!

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there're times when i can't help marvelling at my own nerve
my patience my helpless efforts and my never come true or may be come true dreams
I'm still desparately trying to save my dearest life time ambitions, whereas I prefer to call them my dreams.
like a mother who deeply knows she'll sooner or later miss her child, but never loses faith, keeps dreaming and dreaming and dreaming untill the undertaker arrives!!!!!!!!
oh my dreams........

to decide or not to decide....

Some times my life is so filled with what I might imagine or not that I don’t have enough space for “ME “.
I’ve been busy reconsidering my decisions, my relations, my beliefs and even my LIFE.
I can’t help wondering if I was ever given the chance of choosing to live, would I choose!!!??? May be we had been chosen.........
These questions keep reminding me of Sartre saying we are forced to choose...
I’ve had choices in my life, I have regretted so many, I have dreamed of changing, NO WAY, once one chooses no way to change...