so sweet....

Never ever a post has been written the way and where I’m writing!
Can you guess where I am?
I’m sure you can’t....Well; I can hear the music… I’m sitting on a comfortable chair, well I’m not in a pub, not in a club either, I’m wearing sun glasses , no,no,no..... not at the beach.....
Come on, it’s easy; it’s associated with neatness, cleanness, hygiene…

You let me down!!!!

I’m in my car, waiting in the carwash line!

Awesome, so inspiring, to be honest I was INSPIRED , ‘cause I have nothing to do so I must wait patiently and silently , there’s no distracter no entertainment ,I can perfectly focus on the simplest facts of life.

I can enjoy watching people fall on the slippery street- Just kidding- I can enjoy the much repeated routine of life; the much repeated events that I foolishly take for granted; the lovely sun shining in the sky, the presence and existence of my friends sending me stupid messages every now and then my supportive defensive family even not close, but thankfully around, near or far….
I watch, I try to feel, I try to feel every and each small unimportant thing in my life for the first time ever….

Why happiness?

"Happiness serves hardly any other purpose than to make unhappiness possible."
Marcel Proust

Feelings vs. Reason

“Mankind are governed more by their feelings than by reason.”
Samuel Adams

Is the mankind governed at all? I personally don’t consider me-myself- governed, absolutely not, but if it could ever happen, I’d associate it with feelings.

Dedicated to Sophiya

Sophie,
You know I’m buddy-buddy with you!!!!!!!!!!
Miss you so much cutieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

A bitterly cold evening out with a wonderful friend.
We had French fries, I talked her ear off, and (she did too)
What’s happiness? I can feel it when I hang out with my friends, when I never even take a look at my watch as time passes by, when I don’t worry about what I’ve said -I’d rather say- fessed up .
I have to thank my friends just for the way I feel when they are around, love u all buddies!

Bye....

January 16th
A nice friend’s birthday, I called her, I wished her all the best, we laughed ….

January 17th
A friend passed away, the very same nice friend told me so, I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t believe, I can’t help thinking about my dear departed friend, now that I’m publishing this post, ………..I can’t put it into words, it’s too painful

I hate the contrast of life, I hate the mixture of misery and happiness, and I hate it when I can’t keep smiling for more than 24hours.

Sanaz I already miss you
God bless you!

Her birthday

It's my dear Ameneh's birthday today, a buddy and I were planning to surprise her, but unfortunately....
I wish I could realize my plans more frequently than when I see them fail..........................
My dear Ameneh, I wish you a wonderfun life, success happiness 'n what ever you yourself dream of,

Cancer

1. The fourth sign of the zodiac, represented by a crab, which some people believe affects the character and life of people born between June 22 and July 23

2. An evil influence that affects a lot of people and is difficult to stop

3. A very serious disease in which cells in one part of the body start to grow in a way that is not normal
(Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English)


1. A murder weapon, recently introduced to me; it greets by a minor pain, maintains the conversation by a killing pain and a funeral is finally held!!!!!!!


What is going on is not just somebody falling ill, it is genocide.
The so far victims have been some of the nicest people I know among my family friends and students

2. The only funeral that takes place before the very eyes of the dear departed!!!

(My definition)

My best friend

There are several people in my life, those who love me, those who miss me, those who share a lot of memories with me…
One of those who shares tens and thousands of sweet funny lovely memories with me is my best friend, we don’t live in the same place any more, in fact we are extremely farrrr
But when it’s New Year vacation I helplessly count every second to have her back with me…
Again the New Year vacation was finished before I even feel it start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I passed two weeks filled by joy, cheerfulness, happiness, fun, love, honesty, harmony, care, friendship, laughter and PEACE

Now I ‘m wondering why we live far from those in harmony with us and next to those who torture others as their favorite hobby, I DO want to avoid this last part ….

My dear Sonia I miss you too much although it’s less than 24 hours you’ve left, ….

A new day, an old impression

Thankfully I still do deeply feel and remember every and each childhood memory of mine
Today I had to accompany my dear niece to school,……
I remembered those days, I’m not suggesting that I miss them, not at all, absolutely not, I could only understand, realize every movement, every word, every look…..
Sometimes I try to make up for what ever …..
Mostly I try to forget ….
But there ‘s one thing that I do want to have a day, I hope to write without any blank spaces, any codes, that would be the most amazing day of my diary writing, while trying to publish them here is still a huge leap….

candy

A:I've got some tasty candies, do u wanna eat 1?
B:No, I'm on a diet, I basically don't accept candies if a stranger offers some....
A:take it easy, my candies are different, they r not fattening, they r wonderful
B:Why should I even talk to you about candies?
A:What do you mean?Don't you trust me? look at my candies? have you ever seen any candies like mine?
B:leave me alone
A:plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
B:I already have some candies
A:you should try mine!
B:no
A:yeah
B:no
A:yeahhhhhhhhhh
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(B reconsiders the decision, trys to appreciate the damn candy
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once B likes the candies .......................)
A:Get the hell out of here
don't wanna see you anymore
I offered them once
thought you might like them
I just changed my mind
no more candies 4 u


B is .......
shockeddddddddddddddddddd
but more .................................................................................


may Lord bless us all

Patience

...looking forward to seeing .... what can I name it?
when it comes to anticipating something what's ever more bothering than counting endless minutes, when one is waiting?
again I'm saying nonesense, I might have had enough of SENSE........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there are some moments in life when I deeply feel I've finally found what I've constantly been seeking, I feel wonderful, I feel................................ silly,...........
going back to the old story is often boring and as painful as ...., but as I write I feel as if each word expressed, each message sent carries some pain away(so selfish)

Here I start

Here I start sharing my ideas and feelings with you, I might not even know you but sharing nice events spreads the joy and sharing bitter ones.........

all those repeated words

Personally I've always been interested in checking different weblogs out, following their stories and trying to read between the lines.

This weblog concept seems to be the post modern 21st century personal dialogue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What ever it is, it's calming, it really is, I love it.

As a traditionally trained writer and French literature graduate, it's a bit hard to adopt to modern forms of writing ,yet amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As it's my very first post, I'd like to cheerfully celebrate it and thank you ,my very first visitor!!!!!!!!!!!